Month: September 2016

Processed with Snapseed.It was just three days ago that I posted this photo on Instagram, saying how relieved I was that Ean didn’t start walking as soon as he learned to stand on his own and from out of nowhere, today he just let go of the wall and started walking around the house.

It took every bit of my discipline not to start jumping around and dancing instead of just quietly walking after him filming, obviously with a lot of high pitched encouragement and “azzizi basma ganoookh!” (don’t ask).

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day-careYesterday I went back to daycare with Ean for the first time in a few months. I told them, if he cries for more than 5-10 minutes and doesn’t settle, bring him out to me. I was sitting in the lobby and waiting to make sure he was okay before I left but I could hear him screaming and crying despite the loud music they were trying to distract him with (as if loud anything has ever helped anyone who’s panicking and feeling scared). After 15 minutes I asked someone to go check on him. She came back and told me he had cried a bit but that he was fine now, however I could still hear crying. I walked closer to the door of where he was to make sure it was actually him, it absolutely was and against daycare policy I walked in quickly and took him. He was crying really hard, sweaty, panicky and out of breath. I had seen enough.…

from-dad-babyLast week we came back from a two week trip to Sweden. During this time Ean was clinging terribly on Ana, making it impossible for her to get a breather in between. As soon as I took him, he started crying and wanted to go back to mama.

This kept on going pretty much the whole trip, so as we were getting closer to our return date to Malta I was getting nervous, that he had gotten so attached to Ana during this time that it would be impossible for me to return to normal routines with him once we were home and Ana went back to work.

Monday came around and we were both worries about what might happen, but nothing had changed, he waved bye to mommy and turned back around to watch his shows and eat breakfast with me. A big sigh of relief followed. At this point I was happy things were just like they had always been, but something had changed.…